That kind of job..

yeah, basically, i miss my psych life. Somehow I miss the idea of being surrounded with psych people. I miss watching videos related to behavior or something and then do some paperworks out of it. Somehow, i miss reading theories of different psychologists and then complain because it gets really confusing and tiring. I miss how i get fucked up during exams and then celebrate right after it. I miss the zombie days because of thesis and i miss how we defended it. I just missed how I rocked my psyc life.
And oh, I miss working in Human Resource Department. I know in myself that I am better off being an HR staff. It gives me a different feeling and I am always motivated to work. I know that I am happy and that I am productive. I just want to work in an environment that gives me support, helps me grow as an individual and an environment that I can relate with.
There are just always times that I can think of the what ifs.. what if I had resigned earlier, what if I pursued my application to other companies who are hiring for an HR position. I just miss..

• processing resumes of applicants
• calling applicants and interviewing them
• deciding whether they get hired or not
• i miss talking to real people, listening to them and to all the stories they share
• i miss giving seminars and conducting trainings, (just imagine how fun it could get)
• i wanna be able to counsel people and help them with whatever issues they have.

Yeah, someday I’m gonna fulfill all of these, I did not just study for nothing. And I won’t let my degree be put to waste.

There’s more to life than just a salary. Sometimes, a fulfilling job with a low salary is a lot better than a high paying job with no fulfillment at all.

Just nothing

There it goes, inferiority complex is making its way through my system again. For the past few months, I have tried to think positively and tried not to over think but it seemed like it is not working. There will always be times when I feel so worthless and down. Feels like the world has taken its back at me. That feeling you get when you tried so hard and it is still not enough. If only you could control your own feelings and submerged all those negative ones so all that’s left are the feelings that can brighten up your day, that can motivate you and make you a better person so there will no longer be any room for unwelcomed feelings and thoughts. If only we all could wish for brighter days, ALWAYS.

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